Questions and lots of them

Please be advised, this is a semi-continuation of my previous post. If you haven't read it and you desire full comprehension (SP) go for it.
Here goes another attempt on the quest for clarity. I have questions, and lots of them. Disclaimer - Do not read this with the obligation to provide solutions or answers to these questions. I am not in search of concrete answers per say, but I have always felt like I could mull my perplexities(not a word) over in my head and fairly quickly determine a semblance of logic. Not so much these days. Is the anesthesia? Am I just at a place in life where I have lots of "life" questions? For example, What is my purpose according to God? What is it He wants me to do, I guess my spiritual gift(s)? Is it to work as an accountant until I retire? Will I get to be the president of a company? What is the job I desire most? Wife? Mother? Teacher? CPA? Church secretary? Does Hunter hit jackpot and have a job where I wouldn't ever have to work? Is that what I want, to stay at home? Or would I rather work and hopefully be a mom? Am I bored? Whats next? How do you decide if you want kids? Why so cautious at work? Am I trying to make friends? I have some pretty good ones right now. You're just there to work, right? Why don't I have all of the answers right now? Why all the complaining and whining and negativity? What the heck? Purpose. Focus. Goals. Things that are most important to me. What are all these things?.......(long pause for time spent in thought)............Has anybody else experienced this? Might I say again, What the heck?